REALNESS

I WISH I HADN'T SEEN THE REALNESS
I WISH I COULD HAVE STAYED WRAPPED UP AND PREOCCUPIED...
SURROUNDED BY THE HOPES AND OPTIMISTIC WARMTH 
OF IDEAS THAT MADE IT POSSIBLE TO GET THROUGH THE NIGHT
I WISH THE DARKNESS WAS NOT SO UN-ORDINARILY COMFORTING AND REMAINED MORE FAMILIAR THAN THE LIGHT OF THE TRUTH
I WISH IT HADN'T UNLEASHED ITS BEING INTO MY HEART SITTING VIBRANT UNDER MY MINDS SPOTLIGHT
I WISH I COULD OF STAYED NAIVE AND SYMPATHETIC TO OTHERS EXPERIENCING THE SAME REALNESS...
NOT THE EMPATHY OF ACTUALLY ENDURING THE PAIN
I WISH I NEVER WOULD HAVE HAD TO UNDERGO THE TRUTH 
OF ITS ACTUAL BEING
I WISH I COULD HAVE GONE BACK TO YESTERDAY AND NEVER WONDERED AIMLESSLY INTO THE REALNESS OF THE DAY CALLED TODAY...
I WISH MY HEART WASN'T LIFELESS
THAT MY EMOTIONS WERE NOT RUNNING RAMPANT
THAT THE WORRY AND THE FEAR WERE NOT SO RELEVANT AND HAD NOT YET
ENGULFED ME WHOLE HEARTILY
I WISH THE REALNESS WAS SIMPLY A FALSE PRECONCEPTION