21 September 2008

LESSON 1

One day last week at the Safeway I was walking to go and find a basket since I had collected more than I could carry. I saw a Safeway worker walking towards the door with a basket. I followed her to get the basket from her and said out loud..."I'll take that basket ma'am"...She threw the basket by the front door...causing the automatic doors to open...She walked off and didn't say a word or acknowledge me... SO without hesitation I say loudly..."Thanks Bitch" (Pissed off she ignored me and threw it to the ground like nothing)...Tonight I'm in line at the Safeway talking to my mom on the phone when I see the same worker before...She was buying blue Gatorade...and was SIGNING to the cashier on how to bag her groceries...Three bottles to a bag she was trying to tell him...When it hit me she was deaf...I felt like the biggest asshole in the whole state of Washington...I felt like something punched me in the chest...And I realized that is why she didn't hand me the basket and ignored me...My mom and dad tell me not to worry about it...You didn't know they tell me...but I just feel bad...I feel like there is a lesson for me in this to not jump the gun and assume that someone is just being rude or being a bitch...and it hit me just in time...I went to customer service after passing through the line to get quarters for the laundry and the girl was really really shitty to me...like maybe I was bugging her by asking her to do her job...but I stayed really polite...got my quarters...I told her sorry to bug her from what she was doing and that I hoped she have a good weekend...Instantly she said to me...No worries...It's okay...You have a good night too dear. If I would have re-acted to her things would have been probably a lot worse you know? Perhaps a bitch fight? BUT since I was polite she was polite back...and it made me think that maybe she was having a long bad night...like I know too well! It was nothing personal against me...but I was going to take it that way in a heart beat...Which now looking back is the reason for most of my fights and arguments. I jump the gun. I take things personal. I don't stop to think that maybe it's not me. Oh wow Jennifer perhaps the world doesn't revolve around you...and they are mad about something else ffs... Wow...I'm taking this lesson with me...I'm going to try and stop assuming that peoples attitudes are just because of me...stop taking it so personal...and perhaps try and lift them up...If they are still bitter at the end of our meet...At least I know I tried and just maybe It wasn't because of me.